Wednesday, 19 April 2017

钱是那么的重要吗?

半夜一点了。。 才与妈妈小吵了一会儿, 所以我回我自己的房间睡觉去。。


为什么?我真的搞不明白?妈妈是什么缘故花钱加大了?买字?买直销产品??总听到她告诉不够钱顶。。。 要向我借钱顶一顶先, 事后再还我或外婆。。 但总是没还。。

我造续每月的六百元给她, 虽然我是很清楚的知道, 一个月六百元也才一天20元,哪里够用? 但就是因为她有工作, 加上丈夫给的保姆费用一个月八百元。。 每个月都有两千四元,这还不够吗? 她很不喜欢我问她钱花去那里? 但知道这样的一个收入, 不够用吗?她又无法储蓄。。 总是说如果有钱,有谁不想要储蓄呢?我知道舅舅有叫她要储蓄公积金, 利息高。。 但她也就那么两三百块, 若有什么仪式,看医生等等有时还会要向我要钱。。

最近,老公失业。。 从一开始我就告诉妈妈, 他可能无法给他了, 要妈妈省省用。。 但一而再,再而三地按时妈妈,她还是不明白。。结果她自己忍无可忍, 熬不下去了, 撕破脸, 播电给老公向他讨债。。 说他欠他七个月的保姆费。。 老公也是的, 失业那么久还不积极找工, 也很清楚对其他人很不公平。。 但老公就是还没找到工作, 又可以怎样呢?为什么家人就不能容忍?老是警告我, 怎样的老公没用, 早就应该丢了? 妈。。。 你是不是要我每天想你这样吵, 家无一天安宁你才甘愿呢?我不吵不是因为我向他低头, 我怕他。。 我只不过是不想多事。。 现在老公做他自己的。。。 在自己的地头,我也很习惯性不有他在身旁,独立行事。。。 你是非搞到我离婚你才甘愿是吗?你只不过是不想给孩子们一个不健全的家, 我可以没有老公,但孩子不能没爸。。 虽然这个老公一点价值也没,有他没他没分别。。


请你不要再吵了, 我不是要查询你钱财的去向。。 
我真的很不希望你满身毒素, 每天看人不顺眼。。 搞得你周围的人都很不舒服,这也会危害你的健康。。

Monday, 14 December 2015

2016 New Year Resolutions

I was a bit lost in year 2015, 2015 was a RESET year for me and I couldn’t make any new year resolution

Well, if wish to have a better years, it is very important for me to review my past 1 year performance and set New Year Resolution..

Whenever, I am stuck (physically / mentally / emotionally), to always take a PAUSE, REFRESH, REEVALUATE, REACT, and will never rush into conclusion or take any action

Let’s review in 7 areas (from LIFE BALANCE SCORE CARD), shared by Khind CEO : PK Cheng

a    Family
-          To always spend time with my loved one, namely my parents & my two little girls.. it is important to always learn to listen, and try to be as much sensitive as possible to observe their needs & feeling.. especially to my parents who is getting older and older
-          My parents are quite conservative, which they are not good in expressing themselves and in fact they are hiding lots of things from me.. by having the 2 little girls as the bridges, my relationships with my parents are getting better, we spending much quality time together

b    Health
-          Eat healthily, take more fruits (which I was soo lazy to eat fruits). But with the two littles girls around, I must ‘force’ them to eat and I should set a budget from my weekly budget to ensure I buy enough fruits for my family. Moreover with Slow Juicer at home, it is so convenient to plan for balance fruit diet
-          And learn to cook healthy vegetarian food at home / cook tong shui / learn to bake
-          And of cause, to exercise (eg Yoga) with the two little ones, they will enjoy it verrrry much

c    Learning
-          Always cultivate good learning habits at home. (learning = reading ?) I am glad that my dad loves to read, and he is reading newspaper at home every day.. it shows a very good examples for my girls
-          And I have bought lots books for the 2 littles girls. In order not to keep it in bookshelf only, I have set a time table and plan it properly and read it with them daily (WITHOUT FAIL)..
-          And of cause, I will need to have self reading time too (jing si shu xuan is a very good place for all of them to let our hair down)

d    Spiritual
-          Although knowing that Meditation is very good and I need WITH-ME-TIME, but so far I have not take serious move in it. Let’s wake up early and spend 15 min quality times with myself, if possible, better to include kriya home practice too

      Career
-          Really appreciate KS for the chances, I will do my very best for not disappoint him and will try my very best to help him release his workload

 )       Wealth
-          Price hike ! it is very important to spend wisely, identify the NICE TO HAVE and NEED TO HAVE
-          Remember what ms Tee shared in MET : Income – saving = Expenditure

      Recreation
-          Is important and spend some times with friends to keep all in contact
-          To catch up with meaningful / educational movie to widen my knowledge

-          And Return to the Nature with parents & my two little girls

Sunday, 22 November 2015

不要讓你的女人,很堅強

很有意义的一个分享。。。 谢谢双宝妈妈 Serene Tan的分享,就好象在说着我而已

其实,很多时候女人都不希望太坚强,男人以为抛下了一个负担,但事实上他真的一点价值也没了。。。

自以为训练女人变坚强,若有一天他走了,女人可以安然的活着,但他却错了,他在不在已无分别。。。

女人就像守活寡而已

不要讓你的女人,很堅強。
如果她堅強了,就說明你可以滾蛋了。
以前,一個女人很想和老公一起去旅遊,安排了許久,老公永遠都沒有空,從此以後,她的旅程裡,不再需要老公。
她和朋友去做美容,太晚天又下雨了,她打電話讓老公來接她,電話那頭的他不耐煩的說了句:外面下那麼大雨,你就不能自己打個車回來啊?從此她再出門,永遠會記得自己帶衣服和傘。
冬夜和他外出,路面結冰了,很滑,她不由自主的牽住了他的手,他卻自顧自的走著,從此以後,她再沒有需要呵護的時候。
朋友聚會希望他參加,說沒空要加班,看到別人一對對很想他,給他電話時,聽到他在打麻將,從此,再沒要求他出席任何聚會。
孩子生病了,自己一個人慌亂無助,給他電話,第一句回覆的是,怎麼又讓孩子生病了?
從此,無論再無助的時候也不會讓他知道。
曾經看過一句特別經典的話:有時候女人需要一個男人,就像逃機者需要降落傘,如果此時此刻他不在,那麼以後他也不必在了。
她可以很需要你,你就是一切;她也可以再也不需要你,你就什麼都不是了。

Sunday, 11 January 2015

Harvard Business School Presentation - 错过了,好遗憾

觉得好遗憾。。。 眼泪不禁留了下来:就是因为我错过了参与Harvard Business School Global Immersion Field Work - 3rd project with Khind Presentation !

在Khind 工作了九年,后面四年被打入冷宫。。直到成功转进 Khind Alliances, 在KS Chan的带领/栽培下,我从出江湖,有机会在重要的会议出现,开始榜上题名,开始有人注意我,给我机会表现。。

一来,是那时间表 Missleading... 说是8-5pm。。。突然妈妈拨电来说妹妹不舒服,没吃东西也吐!开车回家时,我是很想告诉妈妈不用紧的,是姐姐的病菌传染给妹妹,没事的。。。 但后来想了想,工作还是我女儿的健康重要呢??所以飞车回车,速去速回。。。 怎知,wohuidao公司, Presentation完了。。。 

我问了问同事,以为他们是跟我开玩笑,叫我去吃。。。问了问几个,也是同样的答案。。后来看来看会议室,见到老板们还在里面,我就以为,可能那些salesman 没有参与第二部分吧?!?! 再次看时,会议室的人全走了。。

一向来,我最喜欢就是Presentation,喜欢看人Present,也很喜欢上台。。。 所以对这一次的错过,感到很难过。。

虽然KS Chan是说,会将他们的presentation slides 给我,但这不是我要的。。。 我要看他们台上的威风, USD200千,请他们过来,错过真的很可惜



Hi KS,

As mentioned our 3rd project with HBS is to develop new ceiling fan of modern looking and attractive features, targeting Gen. Y.

Enclosed is the itinerary of HBS students with Khind. The profile of students is also attached herewith.

Key meetings to note:

Tuesday, January 6th

We could meet HBS at 9.30am. The meeting shall last within 3 hours at Ground Floor. Lunch & drinks will be provided. A  room will be provided for their internal discussion after lunch with WIFI ready for internet connection.
  
Wednesday January 7th

Market visit/field work begins at 10.30am to 6.00pm. Venue list already provided to HBS.

Major malls for field work and consumer research:
1.      KLCC Suria Mall (strategically located in Petronas Twin Tower in Kuala Lumpur, the capital of Malaysia)
2.      Mid Valley Mega Mall  (located in between Kuala Lumpur and Petaling Jaya)
3.      Sunway Pyramid Mall

Thursday January 8th

Field Recognition dinner by invitation of HBS at Impiana KLCC hotel from 7pm to 9pm.  

Friday January 9th

HBS to meet us at Khind office at 9.30am for work in progress status and preliminary brief of the presentation. This will ensure the final proposal well fit the objectives and direction of where Khind should be heading in ceiling fan segment. Light refreshment will be provided. Meeting shall end by 11am to give extra time for HBS to repeat field work at shopping mall just in case.

Monday, January 12th
  
Final presentation will be held at Khind office at 10am. HBS is required 15 minutes in advance for the set-up. Projector will be provided by Khind. Business attire is preferred. Lunch is provided after presentation & group photo.    
  
About 25 Khind employees would attend the presentation comprises of:

1.      CEO
2.      COO
3.      Head of department from Marketing, Sales, Technical, Product Development, Merchandizing etc
4.      Senior managers   

I will send out the final presentation notice to all relevant personnel shortly. I also attached previous correspondence to HBS about the overview of ceiling fan market in Malaysia. Please refer the attached email for reference.  

Albert Tan
GM – Marketing
KMM

**********************************
Hi Shiv,

Sorry for the late reply as I was travelling and unable to reply you timely. While I’ll be providing a structured brief about ceiling fan market in Malaysia in weeks to come, I thought of just sharing below some useful info for your team to start off.

·         Overall ceiling fan yearly market size estimated in 2014: USD 65 million (considerably attractive in view of country population of 28million only)

·         Market segmentation share:
1.       High end/premium (unit price above US$ 150, mostly designer/deco fans): 15%
2.       Mid price range with remote control (unit price USD 80 – 150): 45%
3.       Basic & low price range (unit price USD 35 to 80): 40%

·         Most ceiling fans are AC operated motor but with the increasing awareness of Eco-friendly and energy efficiency which consumers going after in near future, DC operated motor fans will be the future trend and the mass production will result in economically viable.  

While the project is to develop energy saving and smart features ceiling fans, with aesthetically appealing design to modern household living in urban area, our main target consumers would be the mid price range segment. To assist you, following are the key players in the market:

Sharp -https://www.sharp.com.my/docs/ProductPageRedirection.jsp

On the other hand, we would expect Susanna to provide a detailed schedule on Global Immersion with key milestones soonest possible. Until then all the best to your team’s preparation. We look forward to meeting you guys in January 2015. Cheers.

Albert Tan
GM - Marketing
   



From: Gaglani, Shiv [mailto:sgaglani@mba2016.hbs.edu]
Sent: Tuesday, 4 November, 2014 10:46 AM
To: Albert Tan
Cc: Lalli, Danielle; Mattingly, Elliot; Santos, Felipe; Sidi, Mor; Slater, Bill
Subject: Re: Harvard Business School Team Introduction and Call

Dear Albert,

Thank you and your colleagues again for taking the time to meet with us. We are very excited about working with you all in January. If possible please do send us any additional thoughts or documents that may be helpful as we prepare to arrive in Malaysia. Have a great rest of your week!

Best,
Bill, Danielle, Elliot, Felipe, Mor, and Shiv

On Oct 27, 2014, at 10:08 AM, Albert Tan <albert.tan@khind.com> wrote:

Hi Danielle,

First of all, my apology for the delay in confirming the telecall with your team. 

The only possible time slot would be:

Tuesday, October 28: 9pm EST = Wednesday, Oct 29: 9am (Malaysia time). 

Otherwise it would have to be the following week, Monday November 3: 9pm EST.

I would prefer Skype and my account is albert.tan_kh. Would look forward to receiving your call agenda soon. Cheers.

Tan Albert
GM – Marketing
Khind Malaysia








From: Lalli, Danielle [mailto:dlalli@mba2016.hbs.edu] 
Sent: Tuesday, 21 October, 2014 5:53 AM
To: albert.tan@khindmistral.com
Cc: Gaglani, Shiv; Mattingly, Elliot; Santos, Felipe; Sidi, Mor; Slater, Bill
Subject: Harvard Business School Team Introduction and Call

Dear Mr. Tan,

We hope this message finds you well.  We wanted to introduce ourselves as the Harvard Business School FIELD team that will be working with Khind-Mistral in the coming months, culminating in our visit to Kuala Lumpur in January.  We have attached a PDF to this email that briefly outlines our educational and professional backgrounds.  We are very excited to work with your team and hope to provide tangible value to the firm through this project.  

To our understanding, the objective of the project is as follows: 

Develop a new product design for the household ceiling fan that appeals to young urban couples living in Kuala Lumpur.  The concept should consider new energy saving mechanisms (potentially smart technology), as well as the design and décor of the fan.

Accordingly, we are hoping to set up a call with you next week to discuss this project scope, along with some background on the market and Khind-Mistral as a whole.  We would also like to take this opportunity to more formally introduce ourselves and address any questions you may have.  Given the 12 hour time difference between Kuala Lumpur and Boston, we have listed a few time slots below that may work for you – please let us know your preference.  After solidifying a date and time, we will follow up with an agenda for the call prior to our discussion.  In addition, please let us know if you would prefer a Skype video conference or a traditional conference call and we will provide full dial-in/log-in information.

Monday, October 27: 7am EST or 9pm EST 
Tuesday, October 28: 7am EST or 9pm EST 
Wednesday, October 29: 7am EST or 9pm EST 
Thursday, October 29: 7am EST

Furthermore, if there are any internal company documents or market research reports that you feel may be of particular relevance to our project, we would love to review these before or after the call.    Thank you for your help, and we look forward to a productive discussion.

All the best,

Shiv Gaglani
Danielle Lalli
Elliot Mattingly
Felipe Santos
Mor Sidi
Bill Slater         

Sunday, 5 October 2014

Hello & Bye.... nothing to hold back

Hi, wil like to tell u that : i really appreciate to hv u as my fren.. reaallyyy never never expect to bump into u again.

Well, as life is always soo colourful, we hv went thru ups n downs, n we r half of our life journey now. From those peoples who we meeting day in day out, stil i wil say : frens we know from school r the most precious. N we wont know when we wil get out of our life journey, n it really worry me, like people said : first we all wil gather, meeting our frens in reunion, wedding gathering, etc then funeral.. oh gosh.. that's y i wil always treat today as last day. Additional to this, we r getting older n older, n we know ourselves well, we r getting weaker n weaker

That's also the reason y : when last met u in Clinic, i was struggling hard either to drop u a mesg (to continue to hv a precious fren like u) or that's it : just a hi~bye fren

Anyway, frenship is two ways traffic, u hv my contact too.. feel free to drop me a mesg, or watever greetings, or talk nonsense (as real frenship is with no benefit to b granted) or share ur cutie little sweet heart, or blah blah blah.. or if u wan to buy me a meal.. (hahaaha.. that's the main point : free meals !!)

If hv chance, i wil share with u my twins then. Time really flies, fast progress til i lost track~perhaps sign of aging (poor memory) thats y i started to hv bbs' journal

p/s : waiting and waiting... still... that's no news from him. just a simple mesg also dun have, Why shall i still keeping this type of friend who do not appreciate me ? Let's it gooooooo

Thursday, 2 October 2014

重逢。。。

前两个星期,姐姐生病还没好,所以我请了半天假带他去看医生,因为医生说若三天后还没好就要倒回来

早上去到 Dr Tang's clinic 很多人,所以爸爸建议报名先然后去吃早餐在到回来。。

正当我匆匆忙忙报名后要离开观赏玻璃门时,突然一个收悉的脸孔从人群中出现。。 眼睛迷糊的我看不清楚就上车去了!

回到诊所时,我问护士:“刚才是不是有个姓Yeoh 的家长?”,护士问我是Venice Yeoh 吗? 我不知道。。。只告诉护士因该是吧?我不懂孩子的名字,因为刚才的那个家长很像我多年的朋友。。

离开那么多年了。。。 正当我重见到他时,我觉得还好!但。。我的心就是很不舒服!!我心里的那个结又出现了。。

有两样东西我放不下,我很想知道:-
1)为何要我等他毕业回国,就这样痴痴的等了四年,好不容易盼她读完书工作拿经验回国,去机场接机,没有第二次的约会。。。就告诉我,我们不适合,分手!!未免太残忍了吗?是不是因为你在国外寂寞?需要有人陪你谈天?你回来后,我们完全没有真正的尝试在一起,你就这样判我死刑?完全不给我解释的机会???我放不下,你欠我一个交待。。。到现在:我们一起电邮,所说过的话还是很清新的在我脑海里

2)我为了等你回国,那时的我没能力给深爱的你什么贵重的礼物或见面礼,所以很费心思将我们从头到尾(直到你回国)的所有邮件拍得整整齐齐,游泳卡通人物的信纸 打印好放在一个File 里!!它是我们所有的回忆,我们的一切。。当我将它交到你手上时,我真的很希望读了它,会改变主意。。我们可以再在一起,从distance love 的各种幻想,各种我们想一起做的东西,现在我们已经没有了距离的限制,我们可以在一起了!!但就着那么一句“我们不适和,一切就毁了

也就是因为这样我对吴淡如书里说的话印像深刻:

世界上最遥远的距离,不是生与死 
而是我就站在你的面前,你却不知道我爱你 

世界上最遥远的距离,不是我站在你面前,你却不知道我爱你 
而是明明知道彼此相爱,却不能在一起 

世界上最遥远的距离,不是明明知道彼此相爱,却不能在一起 
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念,却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里 

世界上最遥远的距离,不是明明无法抵挡这股想念,却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里, 
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

当时的我真的很不开心,一向一个人的我,没有人可以与我谈天,所以我看了很多很多的书,很想从书里找答案,我可以如何挽回呢?我真的很想很想挽回!!我们从remove class就开始暗恋对方,但从来不表白,虽然我还我们各自都转校了,但就是隔壁的学校,我们去一样的补习班,但就是羞羞地打个招呼而已,从来没谈天。知道你出国升学,我们不懂那里拿到对方的电邮在开始联络,也才开始表白!!也就是因为这样自我会特别的珍惜我们的这一份感情,经得了时间的考验(从remove class 1989 年至1995),再加上你出国四年。。。所以我觉得放弃可惜,我不想再有这样的遗憾。。。 但单掌拍不响,你就是很坚决地拒绝了我!!很伤。。很伤!!!

当迷迷糊糊的重逢时,我犹豫了很久,我与友人提起,我可以再联络你吗??但,不懂为何。。当与他们提起,我的眼泪不受控制地直流。。。当时我知道,我应该还没准备好与你见面,担心我会很失态!

就如Ms Chong 所说的 :
of cause it is an answer you would wan to know after all these years. but before you do it, ask yourself this question.. How important is it to you that you must know the answer ? after all these years and you have your own family and he is. if it is important to you, then ask him. get in the contact. at least you know why. rather than giving yourself all sorts of reasons on your own. but after knowing, would it hurt you more ? nobody knows till it happends. it just my point of view. remember i am much older than you. although i din't go thru all these before, only had 1 an the last one.. but gone thru ups and downs, happiness and sadness thru years, i find out that i can't tears easily. however i tear crazily watching dramas and movie though

想了想,两个礼拜后,我决定 Watapss 你,找不到你的电话号码,唯有向诊所要:
Haloo...
nv expect will bump into old olllldd fren in dr tang's clinic, how are you doing ?
who is this ?
chua soh hoon
Hi :)
the other i still thougth i see wrongly
i mean the other day
aunty is like that larrr
driving me crazy when they sick sick
because i didn't see you in the clinic then all of a sudden i see you at the door
yeah i know
full house, so i registered and went for bfast first
weather change
no wonder, lol
nv notice you were insdie too, when i closed the door, suddenly someone stepped out, how many kids you have ?
twins ?
1 daughter
because after injection, fever
douther is good, daddy's sweet heart
yes
how many years aldy ?
2 yrs
yup, twins.. 15 mths both girls
nice
double happiness, double headache too
girl is easier to take care
lok.. i was about to say the same thing.. hahah
i tot ur kids shd be very big alrady, met up with beng hua, his kids are big
at least both will not give me headache at hte same time
gotta chat later. soemthing comes up
sure

离这次的再次交谈,每当短讯传进来时,我都一直带着希望,因为你说chat later, 已经一个星期过去了,还是一个 ‘等’字。。 我不懂,我就是很想很想知道为什么。。。接下来我应该怎样做呢?你可以当个鸵鸟,但我心里就是有一个解不开的结,结铃终需要结铃人。。。 我希望你可以好好的给我一个交待!现在我们俩都有了各自的家庭。。

我在想,我可以传一个长的短讯给你。。。让你知道这段时间发生了什么事吗?我是多么的在意,多么的努力,当到现在:可以说我还是很珍惜你这个朋友。。。我不想因为这样。。。就完了。。。




Monday, 14 July 2014

公假:我说谎。。再度放怂去咯!

这个月有三天的假期,我好想好好地休息。。不想顾孩子,只想待在咖啡馆,发呆。。翻翻报纸。。看看书。。看看四周的人。。所以我选了一天休息,多两个星期的公假我就在家陪孩子,让爸妈休息



就这样,我说谎。。今天被逼工作,而独自驾车来到的  bandar puteri, puchong.. 向好友若梅拿了她家的钥匙,在 paparich 独享我的轻松早餐。。 待会儿,等我眼倦了,再到她家歇一歇,等她放工回来,在一起去看戏 :who train the dragon 2

虽然驾车的途中,我觉得有点  guilty, 爸妈顾孩子们也很辛苦,也需要休息。但我很累,很难有这样的一个机会.所以我不想错过,唯有说谎,我才有休息的几乎。

翻了翻报纸,其实也得到了蛮多的启示,我工作的态度。。因为忙,我为了交而作,没真正去了解,去看好我所做的东西,所以错误连篇。。

也是好, 有那么的一天。。让我重整理心情,自己观察自己, review 一下自己这半年的进展,为下半年再努力。

我不穷,我有智慧,我有健全的身心,一向来从未真正提起担任家庭重责的我,是尤其是爸爸的那件事,让我真正开始成长了,是时候回报我父母亲的时候,他们养育我,为我做那么多,我只会抱怨,以为理所当然。就如妈妈说的,顾两个宝宝,还要顾我这个大  baby..